It's been awhile since I've posted. I've come back here a few times and typed out long entries updating everything, but then I usually delete them. To be honest, there hasn't been much of an update. We're still playing the wait and see game. The MRIs from Japan are almost to his neurosurgeon's office and then we'll hear what the plan is. The meds are taking a toll on him. His neurologist explained the side effects of his medication when he prescribed them. He said there's a 1% chance of his attitude being affected. He could become volatile, easily angered, just different. It could be the medication, or it could be the tumor. My husband had joked about how with just our luck, he'd be the 1%. The neurologist said he's honestly only seen it happen to one patient. Well, with our luck, he is the 1%. The medications have changed him.
The man I married was such a happy guy. He would make friends with anyone and joke about anything. He'd never get angry, and his fuse was SOOO long. He hated confrontation and would just ignore a situation if he knew it would lead to a confrontation. The medications have changed all of it. His fuse is practically non existent. Going out in public and dealing with crowds has become a chore. It is almost as if he has lost his filter. Whatever comes to his mind, he will say.. nice or not. I feel like I have to apologize to strangers sometimes. He will just laugh it off and say, "it's my tumor talking.." but they don't know that. That's probably been the hardest part.
In other news, 5 weeks from today (at the latest) we will be welcoming our 3rd little man into this world. My c section has been scheduled! Everyone believes he will be here before then, but I'm determined to hold him in as long as possible. With everything going on in our lives right now, I need something to stay on schedule. So many uncertainties right now, I am counting on my little guy to be the one I can count on to just stay put until necessary. If you pray, please send some our way...
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